Little by little, adding more and more, trying to get more things accomplished, I find myself today with such a big load of things to do, that once again this blog has been left aside.
Between the things I want to do and got involved by myself, together with the others that are given to me by circumstances of life, time dissolves and space is reduced, to the point of continually finding myself several days later, rather than going one by one, as it is supposed to be.
Munching too much at the time has become my drug since I acquired Fibromyalgia. The ghost of loosing energy and mobility in the future, while being reminded everyday of it by the pain and stiffness as soon as the medicine looses effect just three to four hours after I take it, keeps my mind trying to find ways to complete all I wanted to do in the rest of my life as fast as I can…just in case!
I am not quitting life and accepting to finish in a wheelchair, but the loss of energy and mobility a little more everyday forces me to concentrate in the “big” stuff now, like the cars that need restoring and finishing all the home improvements, while leaving for later the road trips for the fun of knowing and learning (the stuff easy on the body).
Time is gold, and my body refuses to let me reduce the sleeping time to less than four hours a day, seven days a week, in order to have more time to accomplish things (I told you my body is not cooperating, LOL). So having reached the limit of hours a day I can use, now the only way is to wait to finish things, so to be able to organize more efficiently the others in time.
Then the time of munching projects will be over, and time chaos will be replaced by time order once again…or so I daydream of.
Raul
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