Since childhood I’ve been guided, suggested and pushed to live the kind of life a Human lives. It was the perpetuation of the norm. It was what has always been, and so what suppose to be. Everybody lives this way, so there is no questioning of living in any other way.
When the child shows signs of being from a different specie, it is not question what kind of life this child suppose to live, but instead it is about “fixing” the child from his defective ways as a Human, and then send him to live the Human life.
So the child, who doesn’t bring his own knowledge, acquire the knowledge given to him by adults, and so start to believe that he should live the Human life, and whatever obstacle he finds between his own personality and capabilities and the Human life ways, it must be that he is mistaking and in need of fixing himself.
This child then lives an entire Human life as a never integrated element of Human society. He lives the Human life as a second class citizen in their society because he cannot respond to the usual needs and ways, and so no matter what knowledge he might have acquired in his life, he still has to live only half way in, dreaming of being part of society as he was taught he suppose to be, yet with the resignation that he will never be.
Only in his private life he can create his alien world where he can feel really at home, pretending that everything is normal and in the way it supposes to be, outside the walls of his private world.
I have become tired of trying to live the Human life! Like waves on the shore, persisting in reaching the sand as far as they can go, my Aspie elements keep coming up continually, beating my taught intentions of being a Human that supposes to live the Human life, destroying my truly nonexistent possibilities of some day becoming like a true Human being.
So finally, I declare my Rebellion and my need to live my own kind of alien life!
I have decided to start the transition from living as a second class citizen of the Human society, to live the life of an Aspie! Transition from what I’ve been taught, to what I suppose to really know.
There are two species on Earth of what I know; Humans and Aspies. There could be more! But one thing I am now sure about, and that is that Aspies cannot live the Human life because they are not design and build for that task; so in their attempts they will always be second class citizens, living just half way in and half way kicked out.
So I start my Rebellion and proclaim the true existence of another specie on Earth! I am an Aspie and I don’t need fixing to be a Human because I am of a different specie! So my Rebellion to live the Aspie life instead of the Human life is ON!
What elements should be changed and what kind of construction should be performed, I don’t have a clear idea yet. After living the way I was taught and told for an entire life, I just begun questioning about how an Aspie life supposes to be. All I know is (by experience) that by trying and persisting in trying to accomplish a Human life, I will always be a second class citizen in their society, living only half way in.
So I have to live the Aspie way in Human society, forgetting about becoming one of them, because I am not one of them. I am not of the Human specie…I am an Aspie!
Raul
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